on the bathroom floor

Goodbye sanity. Sometimes you might think perhaps being a teenager means you've developed more of your brain and maturity, and you're ready to take on new challenging ideas. If you're like my parents you would give teenagers the benefit of the doubt. Don't. Because right now I'm getting even more screwed up by the minute, and if your brain is like a wobbly piece of jelly, slopping on more piles of jelly on it'll make it all slide off, contaminating the original piece bit by bit in the process. Everyone knows, that the REAL way to learn any crap, is to experience it yourself, not read it in theory from a fucking book. Sometimes, you have to let people make their own mistakes.

And you know what the worst thing is. The worst thing right now. Is to feel absolutely on the edge, to feel all the emotional violence going on, and then you look around, and all the cars are still driving by, the air is moving lazily, the clock is just ticking. It's like everything you feel makes no difference. It's like maybe, you're really that insignificant. So many things are happening underneath the surface every day. And those things aren't very convenient sometimes.