on the bathroom floor

Being dragged off to see some/ a lot of my relatives in M'sia. My relatives are practically strangers to me. I only have 1 set here in S'pore and the rest are in M'sia or Australia or somewhere else.

I dunno what the reason is , but I just don't want to see them. My mom keeps telling me that just being there would matter. I don't have to talk to them or do anything. I just have to be there. Honestly, I feel alienated from my extended family. I don't even know who is who and all that stuff.

Maybe it's suppose to be very sad and disappointing but right now I really don't care...I don't feel bad about it. Argh. What a drag not to feel anything. Oh well. I don't mind leaving this place for a while.

And to our dear friend who is still angry and ignored my apologies, you stay pissed as long as you have to.