Monday, January 05, 2009
REST- SOLUTION
Okay. Frankly, I never make "new year resolutions" because I think they are cock. But in light of what happened today [not in school], I have decided to make one. To be less selfish. It's lame but important because deep down, I am an incredibly selfish ass. Really. I want to open my eyes and realize that other people are people too and it's not all about constantly getting what I want.It's going to be hard for me because when I suddenly get competitive and turn into this weird creature I become extremely selfish and insensitive. It's time to put those days away. I don't know how I'm really gonna do it but I'll try.
And I want to say that I love my brother. I don't know when I'll dare to tell him that. I only got upset because he went for something that made ME feel lost. He found his direction and I should accept that. I haven't fully understood that yet and I honesty don't know when I will be okay with it. But it shouldn't matter. It was his choice. He's changing too fast for me and I'm acting like a bitter sucker because of that and yet he treats me so well.
I don't know when I'm gonna grow up, wake up, and get out of this state of childish foolishness. I don't know when I'm gonna be able to accept that things are going to keep changing and no one is going to wait for me.
// posted by w.h.y. @ 3:39 AM 
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