on the bathroom floor

Yeah of course you could say that we're still young. But what if you keep being stuck with this mentality that you're young and you end up freakin 30 and you have no idea where you've been going in your life? What if one fine morning you wake up to drive [please be driving at least] to work and on the way you're just wondering 'what the heck am I doing?' And by then it'll be too late because you have wasted half your life away and you can't go back to when you were young and still had choices. Which is now.

I don't even know what I'm doing, honestly. How long are you entitled to live in the stage where everything is experimental? What if you end up experimenting everyday and reach nothing when everyone has already gone somewhere else? I guess I could be referring these questions to visual arts as well. It's apparent that everyone has developed their own style already. Something you can identify. I really don't know how long I'm going to go about experimenting. I'm afraid that it all goes no where. I've been having these sentiments for very long and it's hard to clear them off seeing as so many people around seem to know where they're headed for.

I also wonder if I'll be able to live long enough to enjoy all the things that I want. Well now that's moving on to another issue about when we'll die blahblahblah. Sometimes I wonder why some people are so scared to die. It's not as if living is that great either...Okay maybe I don't mean that but people should be more open-minded. How do you know living is better when you haven't died? I guess I could say I'm not afraid of death but I'm afraid of the process and cause. And when it happens. Anyway enough of this mumbojumbo already...

Honestly, once more, I'm not exactly looking forward to the post-exam activities. Well that makes perfect sense because I am of all things, not an "activity" person, not a "persons" person, and definitely not a "move around a lot" person [excluding going overseas]. These kinda "fun and games" things don't really turn me on. I'd much rather they shove our results to us, go through quickly and throw us all home to enjoy what's left of our freedom. I guess that's just me. I guess I'm no fun then. Oh well.

And I've officially given up on twilight. The poster, as Wen Yan said, is a complete travesty and it really burns to see it. And I can't believe Supermassive Black Hole is the first song on the damn soundtrack. I can't believe it's even there. If Stephenie Meyers just had to have a Muse song [which she did] she could have at least chosen a song that actually fits with the damn story. Yes, I guess in some way SBH is sort of a weird love song but still, I can't imagine how they'd be able to fit it into the story and the last thing I want is for Muse to become this bloody super mainstream band because of a stupid soundtrack for this teen romance series. Okay, or maybe I'm just thinking too much. But whatever. Having that song on the soundtrack is just plain bad. After the screwup of Breaking Dawn and this, I seriously...nevermind.

Well another long post. Sally's Song is so beautiful the tune is just stuck in my head again, not that I mind. I could just recite that verse over and over again until you get it.