on the bathroom floor

I feel like after everything that has been thrown at me recently, I've just come out hardened and slightly unfeeling.

And I really don't know why. We had to close our eyes today and think about the music comforting us as we walked out of the building. I wasn't comforted by anything. I didn't even need to be comforted because I wasn't afraid. I wasn't confident either. I was nothing. Just nothing at all.

I said that I would smile. I don't care. I'm just gonna keep smiling as long as I can. I'm just gonna keep saying that loneliness= independence as long as I can believe it.

I really don't know what to do with myself.

I just want to sleep because sleeping is the temporary escape you can get. But then I can't because I know there's just too much to do, so little time to waste.

I wish the world would just shut up for a while and leave us alone to live.