on the bathroom floor

Apart from visual arts and a few other lessons, tomorrow is going to be a whole bunch of *[..]. To top if all off, 2 fresh hours of P.E. at the end of the day, where we will do a NAPFA trial. The whole damn NAPFA- 2.4km run plus the five stations. Somebody come break our legs! Bring the gauze! Bring the fake plastic casts! Bring the acting instructors! Erica, Wayne and I were looking out the classroom window and he asked us to break his leg for him. I suggested throwing him out the window. High enough to break his leg[s], but not too high to destroy him completely. All these stupid thoughts just to escape the 2.4km run...somebody save us, please. Spare a thought for the people who actually have their futures in mind!

More and more useless ranting. As if they'll ever call off NAPFA just for a bunch of whiny kids.

Theory and history of art was okay but it scared me slightly...the thought of essays just freaks me out, especially on-the-spot ones when I don't have time to think. I racked my brains just to think of an ending for the horror cat story in English Lit [and came up with something really weird] and so I fear essays where my thoughts get all rushed. Well, we got ourselves into this. Imagine my "&*#@!!" when I heard of the 4000 word essay we have to write for our IB exam...

This year, so many things have changed in terms of how I like the different subjects. Well I don't liike them but just in terms of preferance. Firstly, I find Chinese okay. Okay! I still can't believe it but Chinese lessons are quite good. We do more interesting things instead of friggin tingxies everyday. I still can't believe I'm saying this but it's true. Change no. 2- I kinda hated English Literature last year, but this year it's so very different and so much better. Last year, English Lit bored me to death with good books turned boring and sour, and boring books turned rotten. Poetry was yawnyawnyawn, take 4 hours to type out an ESSAY and all I get is a "watch your structure!!" with nothing else at the back. Everything was a bore. Ellit now is a much better experience. Now for science. I used to love it, but now I don't think I like it that much anymore. I don't know why, but this year it seems different. Geography- Loved it as well, but I pretty much hate it right now.

Sigh. I feel stuck in life. We're never going to be free. There's no way we'll ever be able to like everything. I'm just quite sad that I've lost interest in things I used to look forward too. Very sad...