on the bathroom floor

Wow. The first actual day of lessons wasn't as horrifyingly, dreadfully, dauntingly [ok I'm exaggerating] cut-throat as I thought it would be. I just wish it wasn't that long though. I like most of my teachers [phew], and the lessons were okay.

I have always dreaded maths [mainly cuz I suck yeah] and it really doesn't make me feel better that we have 2 hours of it every Monday, but I guess that's the only way to help people like me. I don't just want to take the math studies paper and "live and not get cheated"! We were given a worksheet on number patterns today and I felt very idiotic since I couldn't "see", and got overjoyed when I could finally attempt "ON YOUR OWN" on my own. Sometimes I keep thinking that my brain has a problem with maths...I seem to take such a long time to grasp some things when everyone else goes "ohhh". It really sucks eggs and I feel more and more stupid every second. My dad could have been a little more generous with the genes, really. Thankfully our maths teacher is quite nice and probably not the "plus or minus sign? Huh!? stop staring at the paper and answer me!! Should this be plus or minus!!?" [with eyeballs bulging out] math-teacher-from-hell kind that I truly fear. Sigh of relief.

We also have media education which is where we all get to learn more about how to use a mac. Finally I can show off to my brother on his macbook!...unless he already knows more than me about it which is probably the case as usual.

IHSS didn't feel very nice. For starters, we all received an "expectations" paper. Don't get me wrong, I don't think the requests are unreasonable or anything and it IS important to uphold discipline in the classroom during lessons drone drone drone [I wonder if the teachers bei this stuff...] but I personally think that beginning a lesson with giving the student a list of expectations isn't exactly the friendliest/nicest/most pleasant way to do it. Everytime we get stuff like this I feel like we are a bunch of unruly wild horses that have to be trained and reigned in...it doesn't give a nice feeling for us [or me at least]. Oh well. Maybe one day if I ever become a teacher I'd get so bent out of shape from unruly students this idea wouldn't sound so bad...just trying to step in their shoes for a moment...Other than that, IHSS was okay and I think the group project is quite cool though it would be better if we had more time. Haha. And now I feel like I'm filling out a feedback form. First I am an album reviewer, then a manners teacher and now I'm just a complain-queen student. Wait. Actually I think I'm a complain-queen student most of the time.

Tomorrow should be quite cool, and for a strange reason I'm looking forward to PE which I've hated since..ever. Wow this is really weird. How I wish I could suddenly 'love' maths for some 'strange reason' too...

We're finally going to have our first visual arts lesson as well. Bring on the paint and all the funny smells that come with it!