on the bathroom floor

I feel like I haven't seen my brother for ages even though I just saw him for a while today. All of a sudden, his life has been all about church and going out. Going to the camp, doing stuff with his church friends or going somewhere out of the house to some parties or chalet or whatever. I wonder what's the plan tomorrow. And I wonder if I'll ever be like that. I guess I'm just not a chalet person. I just end up bored and start falling asleep in my head.

Jake has a knack for interpretting my dreams when I just make no sense out of them. All this while, I never managed to understand anything my dreams meant. Who knows if dreams really mean anything? Maybe they really do reflect your innermost thoughts that you never dare to admit to yourself. Or maybe they're just your minds way of coping with everything. But what if dreams don't mean a thing? What if they are just messed up images cramped into your mind while you sleep? It's frustrating not to have an answer for this, but let's just believe that dreams are really, truely, slapping the emotions that you've been trying to hide all this while, right into your face. I read in a book, that we simply have to dream. When someone agreed for the sake of experimenting to remain awake for a few days or even maybe more than a week, he started off okay, and then as he went on, he began to hallucinate and go a little crazy. If we don't sleep, then we won't have our dreams at night. In the end, our dreams escape and appear in front of us. So perhaps, no matter what, we have to dream. If you don't go to sleep to find your dreams, they'll find you when you're awake. But wouldn't you rather go to sleep to have them than risk people thinking you're crazy when they visit you while you're awake? Well, this is just what I think. If you think it's utter crap then it's o-kay.

It's almost 11pm and my Mom wants to watch a 'Beatles In 'Love'' show on the telly. My mom loves the Beatles a lot and I think they're really cool...although I don't know much about them, they have influenced many modern bands with their music, so I guess we all should be very thankful for the Beatles.

Thank you Beatles!

[And thank you Jia Hui for graciously allowing me to steal some of your itunes files]

EDIT: I realise I've been really ungrateful to the people who bother to tag on my board. Thank you so much and I really apprieciate everything you guys say.