on the bathroom floor

I want to jump! I want to scream! I want jump and scream! My dad has skyped me from US saying that he got a phone call from the School of the Arts saying I've been shortlisted for the interview for the scholarship! Okay so I haven't actually gotten the scholarship yet, but it's good to know that my slight period of loss of sanity has finally paid-off [almost]. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. The interview is at NUS on Nov 15, in the morning. I must brush my teeth for 5 minutes and eat breathmints! Okay, just joking, but I won't mind eating the breathmints though.

I've read the first few chapter of The Pact and let me say that it was definitely worth the money. It didn't "get" me like Twilight, but it is really good, especially the way the author tells the story by alternating "Then" and "Now". Speaking of Twilight, the 5 comic strips were really cute and Bella the bird has a great sense of humour...

Continued my MTV craze as well. Boiling points had got to be my favourite show ever. If only they would come to S'pore! I'd recognise those people, play it cool and win myself a hundred bucks. Can't get enough of music videos too. A nice mixture of eye and ear candy. I read an article on the web today saying that the lead singer of My Chemical Romance was pissed when people called MCR an emo band, cuz he felt that emo was a pile of shit. No offence, but I kinda agree with that. The emo-styled appearance is okay with me, but the behaviour that goes with it is a complate act and cry for attention. Now please I order[beg] you not to maul me with your daggers!

I've fallen in love with the newest xpress music phone and I can't wait to get it. My mother would prefer it if I waited for 3 months so that her plan would end, she could get that phone and give it to me, and I can trade in my irritating phone that gets constant seizures [for real!] for a 100 bucks to save some money. The truth is, and I know it sounds whiny, I want the phone now, and not 3 long and draggy months later. My mom is hoping and not demanding that I wait, so in other words, if I were to ask for it right now, my parents would most probably get it. But the guilt sucks. Who doesn't want to save $100? Just 3 months. $100. 3 months. I don't want to wait till next year, but I don't want to waste a hundred bucks either. Shall I be the whiny teenager which I really am, or the mature daughter my parents think I am?

Stupid phone. Stupid xpress music. How pathetic we are, rendered helpless and indecisive by a beautiful piece of [....]*

My mom says...you're turning into a couch potato...don't waste your holiday away...2 months okay!...make sure you read more chinese books...why don't you occupy yourself with something instead of watching tv all day... I can't say that this is nonsense, cuz...

She's right.

I really do need to get a life one of these days before I rot into oblivion, fall into the darkness of the endless abyss of confusion, sentenced to the eternal nothingness of a life without meaning. Now that was nonsense. Just like the lyrics of Supermassive Black Hole. And yet it is my favourite...