on the bathroom floor

AHAH. Finally changed my blog skin after more than half a year. Don't ask me to explain the picture and unimaginative colour scheme. Anyway, I finally found that the history book I took was Christine's, and I think she took mine home. Now I'm just wondering how the heck her book got under my table and how she got mine. I think it was probably accidentally swaped when we were having history groupwork. Hmm :/

Today was...different. I ended up sitting in the FIRST row because there was no other seat. I have just about never sat in the first row in my whole life before, but suddenly I feel that it isn't really that bad and I've gotton used to it. It'll make me pay more attention in class anyway. [With Shermaine next to me, it might be slightly harder] And like I said, things are really different.

The environment around me has changed a lot. I don't have the same people to laugh and joke with anymore. I don't have the same wall to throw my stuff to anymore. I don't have to same classroom view anymore. I don't even know if I'm the same me since term 3. Lots of things have changed. I've learnt a whole lot of things.

I've decided that I should be more independent. I don't need to cling onto the same people who don't even want me around. I shouldn't mope around when I feel lonely [which I do quite often now]. I shouldn't have to "count on" people anymore, one day they'll just let me down and I won't be able to spring back. I decided that I shouldn't have taken things for granted since the start of the year. From now on, I'll take all of my loneliness and change it into independence. I won't give a flaming damn about what people think anymore. Enough with the moping and pathetic feelings of being rejected. In the words of Katharine McPhee, I'm OVER IT.