on the bathroom floor

Whoa. I can truly say that this is the week i have said and heard the word pissed more than 5-10 times each day.
School already sucks enough and now we have to deal with all this problematic shit.
Is it part of a girl's nature to have problems with other girls?
GAH. I hate friendship problems.
I hate it when I come across problems where i have to decide.
Do what's right?
Or do what I want?

I just want to say:
Why can't we all get along with each other?
But I won't.
Cuz we all have to get real.
If everyone were best friends with each other,
what kind of demented smiley-faced world it be?
We need conflicts.
We need fights.
We need people with over-inflated egos to piss others off.
We need problems.

Is being mean to someone fun?
Well, I'll just come clean.
It bloody hell is.
Although some people may not admit it,
being mean to people and seeing them suffer BECAUSE you were mean could be a rather good source of entertainment.
ADMIT IT PEOPLE.

But we all have a heart.
We all have that little voice up in our head that bugs a lot with an annoying emotion.
Called guilt.
Unfortunately for now,
my anger is still there and growing.
I am pissed. Oh great.
I said the p-word again.

You know.
The thing with friendship is that
you go a long way before you find truly best friends.
That you have the connection with straight away.
And you meet others.
Whom you share no bond with at all.
And your friendship is just a word friendship
and nothing more.
There is no connection.
No nothing.
You are friends just because you know you have to.
You don't know why. You don't give shit.
cuz you're just following the rules that life set.
But you know when enough is enough.
It's time you open your eyes and find that
some friends were just not meant to be.